Parting is such sweet sorrow

Dear Nate,
I know that I've let you down more than I could ever express and for that I'm sorry. I thought I could handle the Upper East Side, but I can't. I don't know who I am anymore and that kind of scares me. I always knew who I was and what I stood for. Now, I'm not quite sure anymore. I can't stand the fact that you're probably mad at me and you have every right to be. If you're mad at me, I can't imagine what Momma would say. That's why I'm going to boarding school. Serena, Lily, and I discussed it. Lily thinks that if that's what I need, then that's what I should do. Serena's agreed to go with me so I won't be alone. Please don't be mad at me. You're the only family I've got and I couldn't live with myself if you were mad at me.

Love,
Haley